#RPGaDay 13. Describe how your play has evolved

I am probably one of many people who were swept up by the Forge in the early aughts and happily drank the Big Model Kool-Aid. And I stand by that, as it was damn good Kool-Aid.

The short version is that I started the hobby as a wide-eyed kid with dreams of escapist adventures, was then crushed by all of the horrible garbage we learned​ in the ‘80s and ‘90s, and then slowly over the course of a decade figured out how the hell to actually play in a constructive, rewarding manner that acknowledged the needs of everyone at the table. Total cliche.

That said, I feel like I am currently in the midst of another transformation. I’ve written before about how I feel like I’ve been sucking wind as a GM in recent years. I don’t know exactly what is the source of my poor performance, but I feel like, at the very least, I need to take a break from GM’ing and re-assess my approach. I think I may need to unlearn some things again, it;’s just a matter of figuring out exactly what. I just know that continuing to do what I normally do isn’t going to work.

(Strangely, I’m in the same position with my guitar playing. This may simply be a mid-life thing.)

Fingers crossed that I eventually figure it all out.